This past weekend was tumultuous, to say the least. Without going into the details, there were a lot of highs and incredible lows. There were some major revelations and some life altering choices made, yet I am still presented with my choice: Do I continue on the path I am currently on and go into the Reserves, or not?
My mother offered to help me pay for college, instead of me joining the Reserves. That’s a pretty sweet deal, but is it what I want? Can I go into the military with my main support out of the game, for now and maybe for good? Do I want to possibly settle for less or do I want to go all out, balls to the wall, and say “I AM DOING THIS,” even though I’m terrified?
I keep going over the reasons I wanted to join the Reserves in the first place, and they’re all still valid. The reasons for not going are also valid. But, I just can’t come to terms with letting go and I also fear full commitment. (Worse than a virgin prom date, lol).
I think this past weekend is still too fresh for me to decide anything tonight, tomorrow or maybe even this month. I haven’t heard from my recruiter about my MOS yet, so I’m going to try to stall that a little bit.
Times like this I wish I had the ability to see into the future.