Can’t let go

This past weekend was tumultuous, to say the least. Without going into the details, there were a lot of highs and incredible lows. There were some major revelations and some life altering choices made, yet I am still presented with my choice: Do I continue on the path I am currently on and go into the Reserves, or not?

My mother offered to help me pay for college, instead of me joining the Reserves. That’s a pretty sweet deal, but is it what I want? Can I go into the military with my main support out of the game, for now and maybe for good? Do I want to possibly settle for less or do I want to go all out, balls to the wall, and say “I AM DOING THIS,” even though I’m terrified?

I keep going over the reasons I wanted to join the Reserves in the first place, and they’re all still valid. The reasons for not going are also valid. But, I just can’t come to terms with letting go and I also fear full commitment. (Worse than a virgin prom date, lol).

I think this past weekend is still too fresh for me to decide anything tonight, tomorrow or maybe even this month. I haven’t heard from my recruiter about my MOS yet, so I’m going to try to stall that a little bit.

Times like this I wish I had the ability to see into the future.

MEPS …

Well, I had my first experience at MEPS (Ft. Meade). It was less than exciting, not productive (my fault) and FREEZING! I did, however, come up with a few tips that would be handy for your first (or all) trips to MEPS (end of the post).

I went to my recruiter’s office Monday morning around 11 AM. Me and two guys were driving up to MEPS in a van by a driver who…well, for niceness sake I’ll just say I was less than impressed. So, we got to MEPS around 11:45 or so. I wasn’t really told what to expect, and I wish I had been. Luckily I had the forethought to take a book with me. We were checked in, had to hand over our bags (salvaged my book) and told to sit and wait. We did, and we waited for 6 hours. We just sat and waited – welcome to the military: hurry up and wait.